I need help I don't know what to do

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(Thank-you for all that are visiting to pray today. Please unite with us to ask God to reach out our friend here. Les from Admin)



I feel all messed up inside and I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm 31 years old I have nothing and no one. I'm been in deep depression on and off for the past 5 years. But it's getting worse. This is the closest I've come to ever thinking of killing myself. I feel useless I don't have a reason to live. Some times I think my family would be better off with out me. The only thing that has kept me from comiting suicide this long is because my brother killed himself 6 years ago. Well brother in law but he was the closest thing to a brother I have ever had. And I don't want to put my family through that again. But I'm so sad and scared and just so messed up inside. I don't know what to do any more. I don't want to live any more. I want to end my pain. I stopped taking the meds that will keep me alive about 2 months ago. I don't have a thyroid gland so I'll slowly die with out them. But if I'm honest with myself I haven't been taking them regularly like I'm supposed to for a year now. I've been skipping my doctors apointments......

I just don't know what to do any more. When i saw your site I just wanted to let it all out for once. I don't know why but something inside me told me to.

[Les Brewer]

Well first of all can I give you a very warm welcome from me and from all those who generally visit "Friends Of Jesus". Even though this is a bible teaching ministry and does not have any professional team here to support in these circumstances; that does not mean we don't care. So to start with, we are all sending a Christian hug to you and all saying to you, welcome to the family of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.....


I for one don't believe in luck and I truly believe that God as aloud you to find this site. It may not seam it at times, but you are not alone in this situation, even my own wife as gone through deep depression and I too have gone through a family background that broke to pieces. You feel that there is nothing left, and yes even sometimes you don't feel there is a reason to continue, what I am trying to say is that there is hope and there is light at the end of the tunnel. One thing I can share with you from my own personal experience, it's a verse from the bible that was to be the foundation of seeing me through all my situation; Its from Isaiah 40:31 New King James Version (NKJV) "But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.", this verse really glued onto me all the way through from my early teens right up until the horrible family mess was over on my early 20's.

Do you know that when God created us in the beginning everything was perfect and it's only through Sin that started with Adam and Eve, things became non- perfect. God never wanted any of us to be unhappy or depressed and even now he still loves us all despite all the wickedness in the world, God Loves us so much that he sent his one and only Son, that who so ever believes in him shall not perish and have ever lasting life.... Do you know, because of our sins, if it was not for Jesus who can personally understand what being lonely was here on earth, our futures would be horribly lost for ever separated from God. When Jesus actually went to the cross he took on the sins of the whole world and even his own Father had to turn his back on him because God hates sin. The thing is though God does not hate the sinner, he does loves us all and he does not like it either on what you are going through. God's message to you is simple, Simply believe on his Son Jesus and that he paid the debt for all our sins (because non of us have lived a sinless life) and believe that starting a new life with Jesus is the only way forward. Jesus has already claimed victory over all things and he is saying "I am the way the truth and the life" .

What iam going to invite people to do is come onto this site today through face-book and twitter and ask people from all over the world to unite in prayer and ask in Jesus' wonderful name to have is hand upon you and the whole family situation. I want you to simply pray in your heart and say "In Jesus' wonderful name please intervene in my life and my whole family". Will you do that?
Please remember that you are always welcome and I am sorry that I never got chance to respond to your cry for help until now, but starting a life in Jesus is a wonderful experience. I not saying that I lived a trouble free life ever since but having Jesus in my life from the early 80's every step I have taken in life was not a lonely one. You have Jesus and all the Friends in Jesus who care very much.
In Jesus' wonderful name. Amen.